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' bleeding love « Thread Started on Jul 9, 2008, 11:58pm »
' she never had time to smell the roses with him gone, she was a nobody the picture perfect girl, her parents wanted look at her now, would you take her back?
She took a deep breathe in and crossed her arms over her chest with sigh, fresh off the plane a day ago. He looked out atthe lake, she never liked this place, but she was here looking at water. She pulled the thin little short cut sweater over her more, stupid mom with her New York fashion sense. She had Emily dressed up like a doll all the time in London as well as come here a little. But she actuaclly like dthe dress she had on now but it was short and cute looking. Sure it wasn't as her much but it was something, cute right? Another sigh escaped the beauty as she picked up a rock and threw it across the water, it made two hops and fell deep into the water. " gay rock " she whispered with a smirk and walked back to a bench to sit down beside her Prada bag. Her leg crossed over the other as she pulled her hair into a pony tail, having strands drop down to her face. Her hair seemed to becoming back to it natural color of a dirty blonde with light shades of brown mixed in there. Yeah she wasn't a pure blonde, but it looked hot when she dyed it that way. She zipped open the bag and watched a small head pop out and look around in caution. She giggled a little and picked the small dog up from her back into her lap as she gave him a pat on the head. " sit down girl " she said softly as the small animal ignored her to jump off her her lap and sniff around. She smirked at the little thing as it got dirty. Thaat was the pain with having a small white fluffy puppy. There didn't seem to be any bikes or weird people walking around so VANIELLA ICE should be fine. =) Possiabily the only thing she liked from her mother right now.
After that party back in high school, she had been a little messed up inside. Her mother called like crazy and she guessed she picked up on Emily emotions, bought a plane ticket and took Emily back to Unitted Kingdom. Another reason for such her thick accent at the moment, which she didn't like. Atleast three people laughed at her together because when she said fuck, it didn't sound like it. But anyway her mother made her stay at home till she sent her to rehabd for who knows why in the freaking world. Stayed there for a few months and then came out to be sent into some stupid private school with uniform and a stick to hit you with. Emily hated it, her hair would be in two braids and she would have the plaid shirt with nothing to dress it up in because it wasn't aloud. Stupid private school and their rules. Finished highschool there and then her first year in college was finished there as well till she asked on her birthday she go back to New York. Her birthday had actually just recently passed and she got her wish. But the worst part of it all was her possiable husband, her mother wanted to place her with. She had to get adopted by the old fashion parents who thought marriages planed before hand be parents were best. He was cute thought, but he was so..stiff and plain and liked to watch horses chase a fox and golf. He also believe in sex after marriage, he was a total hot freak from the sun or something. She told them once no and left it at that, she would find who she wanted to marry, if she even wanted to get marriaged in the first place to begin with. She smirked at the thought of the guy and watched her small puppy nibble on some grass and then play around with a fly, who flew from her dog's reach.
She started to remember all she felt behind, Romeo her huge dog that she loved. She had left him with a friend and the dog was already old and age and passed soon after. She hated herself for not beening there by her dog's side, if it wasn't for her stupid mom. Her house, she sold and was going to either get a pent or just an hotel room to stay with something small for once. She felt friends, a lot of them; she saw a few o nthe streets. At first they didn't think it was her before of her hair but once she spoke to them, they smiled and huged her tight. She would giggle and lie and say she had somethings to take care of rather then saying my mum took me away because she is a bitch. Next thing she knew, everyone was running toward her from all over, happy to see her again and make her promise to never leave again. Word spread fast, eh? But didn't bump into one person yet, Jayjay. Her cute peanut butter, from what she heard he was doing good for himself and finally got the credit he deserved for his music. She remembered listening to them as he played for her and wondered who inspired him to write those songs, that he wrote. She smiled to herself and looked down, she also remebered that night, when both of them seemed to spill out each others feelings toward each other and claim their love, in her living room. She was scared to run into him, what would she say to him? What would happen to them? They were super close and then she just left out of no where because her mother didn't like how she was living in new york. But her mother didn't realize she had taken her away from someone she loved back in new york. She smirked and called her dog back to her, as she put her back into her back and enjoyed the little pece she had for once.
Re: ' bleeding love « Reply #1 on Jul 10, 2008, 5:03pm »
Sing Us A Song And We Will Sing It Back To You ' '
"You WILL NEVER CATCH MEH",
Jayson yelled as he pumped his feet as fast as they could take him running away from all the screaming girls and boys. That had been chasing him since fifth and avenue and he was still running. Man is this what the jonas brothers felt like always running away from screaming fans. Girls mostly jay had no idea why in hell the boys were chancing after him though. It just had be hair come on who could resist this black puff of heave eh?. No one that was the answer, plus how could have they spotted him wearing his big bug eyes sunglasses. A hat that matched his white babycakes shirt so greatly. Alright so not the best disguise but it would have to work for now as people kept running and chasing him down the streets. Wow was this the real life of a rock star always getting chased down the streets. Having pretty girls always reach for your hands, and wanted to get their hands on his D&C undies. Always waiting for him back stage wanting pleating to be your groupies. In high school he couldn't pay a girl to get their attention. And now they were all following him as if he was a piece of meat. If this was the rock star life then jayson couldn't wait until he was a major rockstar. Even though he was almost kinda sorta a rockstar now all thanks to his friend Johnny.
Who knew that playing at secrets every Friday nights would have gotten him a big gig. Then from Gig a concert then from concert his own tour yeah he must have had some talent. Everything had went so, fast that he had sorta forgot to just have fun with it. Sure he wasn't a huge rock star but he was going to be, with his CD coming out and all that it was a big time spender. Would anyone even like the CD that he was going to with all the gooie love songs, that were made for welll.... Jayson wasn't even going to think about that right now all that matter was getting away from these kids before they torn him limp from limp. "WE ALMOST GOT HIM GIRLS", jay heard a voice from behind say seeing a 17 year old blond girl with braces and thick glasses almost grab him by his white shirt. "IF WE GET HIM WE CAN RIP OF HIS CLOTHES AND SELL THEM ON THE INTERNET", hearing the blond girl say again who had started to run faster bring her only inches away from him. Yeah okay that was his que for start running faster or he might not even be alive for his CD opening. Man these people just never seem to quit it huh. Jayson shook his head his puffy hair swing side to side. i need a place i need a place to hid he screamed in his head his lungs were starting to give out.
"Joes pizza place?", shaking his head they were already starting to come after him as well. Come on one song on the radio and everyone was already starting to follow him. So ok he didnt mind it much it was actually kinda flattering for everyone to be chasing after him. "THE TEA SHOP!", he yelled as he looked behind no one had seem to hear him taking an opposite turn then from everyone else. Hearing screams and 'were did he go', voices as it was only a few spaces down from the tea shop. Jay loved this place it was one of the places he had gone to before he hit it big. Besides B was the owner and he had owned half of his star ness to her anyway's. If it wasn't for her letting him play his music at the tea shop then where would he be today. Lets just say those people wouldn't have been chasing him half way across Manhattan. Finally he had made it to B's Tea shop it was a cozy little place were a couple of people had sipped tea. Slamming in looking around his eyes scanning for B all around the shop. Seeing her help a couple of costumers in the corner that had looked at him with the same faces that his fans has been chasing with. "Hello Jayson honey what can i get for you today", she asked with a smile rushing over to him planting kisses all over his face.
"Nothing today B just a place to hide", he said nodding in his head of all the people screams that were coming closer and closer. "Aye i told you would be famous boyo and look at you all handsome". She winked toward him as he felt his face grow hot. Aw Jayson loved B she had been the closet thing to a grandma that he had ever had plus she was such a sweetie to him. B was one of the people he had planned to by a house for once he had really hit it big time. You know after a couple of C-D's had came out maybe a photo shoot and some benefit concerts. Then BAM he would help her pay off all the Bills, by her a house in good manhattan and make sure she never had to work again. Actually there was a couple of people on his list, B was right bellow jackie his second mommy. While his real mommy had gone to rehab for drinking, and as for his daddy well that man whore had walked out on us. With his new wife who was going to have a baby but jayson didnt care he already kinda new it. Besides that trailer trash didnt belong to such great people like him the twins and jackie. Thank goodness JC had made it big a few days after he had left money was starting to get tight. And well slamming weed just wasnt his thing anymore but that had been a whole different story. All anyone ever needed to know was that jay had been off the stuff for good after his big accident he swore off the stuff.
Well at least the twins had somewhere to live away from there harmful mother and father. Buying them an apartment in good manhattan with jackie of course who he had paid to stay full time. But with Jackie being Jackie yeah she had offered to stay for free telling him. That she had thought of him and the twins has her kids and would never leave them. This had brought tears to his eyes and he just couldn't thank her enough. Even though jackie didnt want to be payed jay always bought her whatever she wanted whenever she wanted it. That was the least jay jay could to for her after all that they had been threw together. Jackie had deserved a lot more then what jayson could offer her but as for right now that would have to do. "I always told this boy that he could do anything that he wanted to if he put his mind to it". B had started to rave about jayson to all the costumers that were still gawking at him with wide eyes. "B!!! THE PLACE TO HIDE", he told her with a small smile hearing the screams start to get closer and closer. "Oh yeah boyo over hear", she said grabbing his hand tightly moving him to the back of the tea shop. "Dont make a sound you can hear everything from the back of the shop to the front", B said with a thick Scottish accent backing up with a smile looking toward jayson.
"What did i tell you ma boy i always new i always new", she said pinching one of his soft cheeks lightly. "Yeah you always new", jayson gave her a little smile bring her to a tight hug. "Thanks B for everything", he laughed letting go hearing the door open and hearing people scream his name. "Don't worry boyo ill get rid of em", she said rushing toward the front putting her mean face on. WHOA. that had been one face you had never wanted to see her make that was the scary B. Jayson kneel down crawling toward the door that had a small see threw window at the bottom of it. Squiting hard trying to see everyone that had filled in the whole tea shop that had at least been covered from wall to wall. "AW well are you all hear to try my new tea Eh?", B asked looking toward everyone who had looked at her with a perked eyebrows. "Were not hear for the tea where here for jayson jeff we all saw him rush in here", hearing a familiar voice that he had heard earlier. Wait was it that blond hair girl with braces he strained his eyes to see threw the blurry glass. Mhmm it had been MAN DID SHE EVER GIVE UP?/ This had to jays number one fan after all sometimes he had swore he had seen her before. And not just when he went out sometimes waiting for him in front of radio stations by his car. Was is this what you called stalking?
Seeing the one of the blond girls pig tales get flipped from the front of her shoulder to the back. "I don't know what your talking about miss there is no jayson jeff here", B told her with not even a hint believe ness in her eyes. "Are you sure i saw him walk right threw this door. i have him GPS on my cell phone". The blond girl said showing everyone in the whole tea shopped who had wide eyes expressions. WTF GPS. alright jay jay had to totally get a few phone this girl was a weirdo on so many different levels. "Besides everyone knows that B's Tea house had the most stink est tea ever", the pig tale girl said with a happy smile looking over at the owner. Seeing B's face go to a sad look jayson felt his blood start to boil. Jumping from his knees straight up to his feet pushing open the back door open. "B HAS THE BEST TEA IN TOWN AND I ALWAYS COME HERE", he said sticking out his lounge toward that girl watching everyone with a mouth open expression. DAM! he had shown himself you know what that meant start to running. "GET HIM", hearing that blond girl scream and heading toward the back. "SORRY B GOTTA RUN CALL MEH LVOE YAH LOTS", jay said pumping his legs once more and heading toward the back door and down the street again. Yeah wow forget Monday work outs this was a work out on its own that was for sure.
Now he had needed a new place to hid somewhere to just sit and relax for a while his legs were starting to feel numb. But where to go he would have went to his place but then everyone would have known where he lived. The CD shop oh yeah how original a rock star at a CD store they would find him in seconds. COME ON THINK DUMMY. jayson screamed at himself turning a coner hearing the screams go into a different direction. Now where was he headed towards the LAKE!. that had to be the most brilliant idea ever besides no one would look for him there right.! RIGHT! well it was his only choice right now hopefully no one would find him in the thick trees. It was starting to get dark anyway's they would most likely give up in about an hour. Hopefully. Jayson started his direction toward the lake escaping into the big trees hearing the screams start to fade away silence started to fill his ears. Aw wonderful silence oh how long it had been since he heard the sound of nothing which just amazing as music to him. His legs had started toward the lake and finally it was right there in front of his eyes as the sunset sparkled on the water. Almost like glowing like trying to tell him something but not really thinking to much of it.
Mostly likely no one would have known it was jayson jeff at the lake there was only a few people there anyways. A couple of kids way to young to even understand his music. Old married couples that probably still listened to the blues and some adults. Who probably thought his music was to bad for their kids to listen to but well his music was for everyone didnt like it to bad. And of course there was the stray's at the lake who were the people just sitting around watching the water like he was about to do. Walking up closely taking a seat where if anyone was to rush into the water he would get his pants all wet. But no one would want to jump into this water, it was kinda murky brown, and you could see a little bit of trash poking around it. That was another thing he had wanted to do was clean up the city a little bit once he became more rich. It was funny how jayson could have been anywhere and the music would follow him. Forcing him to write out a song almost as if, as if bad gas. Yeah it was a weird way to put it but it was defiantly like like. But expect his music wasn't crap it was wonderful or so he had thought. All his song had been mostly for well.. the person he had once loved or still loved it was all very confounding at the moment. It was like how could you love someone that you haven't seen in age. Someone that left you your senior year with even a goodbye, a phone call and not even a text. That was heart breaking but some how he had knew that she had done it for a good reason.
Jayson could have even brought himself to say her name for that matter or just think it. Even though he was probably right about the good reason there was just something that made him feel empty inside with out well you know her. Was it so hard to send a text to the person that you loved and say you were gonna leave for the whole senior year. This had hurt jayson terrible causing him not really to date anyone else for the whole year. Even though he had messed around with a couple of girls come on he was a guy. When it was all said and done she wasn't at his said when his first song came on the radio. SHE was not there when jay had gotten his wish to get signed to a big company. The almost love of his life had just missed out on so much of his life it was like how was he suppose to love her again. Or not love but even get a change to see those amazing green eyes. Touch that oh so soft skin, kiss those two plump pink lips. It had been all to much for him to handle. Jayson stared down at the water as it sparkled up to his eyes when all of a sudden 'his bad gas' started to come out again. Bring out a pen and some paper jay began to write some things down in his sloppy writing of his. Some notes about feeling empty with out one person, how could she leave me like this with out a goodbye.
It was just all to much for him to even bare throwing the paper and pen to the side. He grabbed his the sides of his puffy puff and began to pull at his hair lightly. Feeling tears at the sides of his eyes start to tug thank goodness for his sunglasses. Why did he half to loose her this way not even a letter or a phone call. To say that em- she was ok or that she hadn't been kidnapped or something. Well after high school he had finally realized that it had all been over between them and after highschool. He wasn't going to college he was just going to start playing music more and thank god he had gotten picked up. Each and every song had been for Emily. OH MY GAWD he had thought of her name now if he could have only gotten himself to say it. "E" was the only thing that had started to come out maybe just one more try. "Emily", he whispered to himself letting the words spill out of his mouth like nothing. I guess the saying had been true you never realized you got till its gone.
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Re: ' bleeding love « Reply #2 on Jul 10, 2008, 7:35pm »
' she never had time to smell the roses with him gone, she was a nobody the picture perfect girl, her parents wanted look at her now, would you take her back?
She knew the life he had then and she knew how he was now. All big in the music work and she bet loved by many because of his puff trademark hair and voice. She could still remember his vice when he sang her to sleep once because she was having a bad day and he wanted to make her feel better. She closed her eyes and let her head fall back a little to breathe in, almost wanting to clear her mind. She missed his voice so much, she missed his songs as well, it was like they clamed her. Even if she didn't know half the time, who he was talking about, can't blame her it was before the whole 'i love you' thing. She always did wish she was that girl he talked about in his songs and like who he thought about at night before he went to sleep at stuff. Now she thought she was the last thing on that boys mind, he had his music, the twins and maybe a new love to kiss at night. She had almost forgot the twins! She misssed them so much, with their cute little faces and puffy little hair. She knew they were in good hands and happy as ever, having their big brother has a rockstar. She just wanted to hug themtight and kiss their little faces up till they wanted to wiggle free and eat all the sweets from her house. Like her oh so famous brownies that jay loved so much and that she use to make for him what seemed daily. She even had one in her bag, she like never made them now, they just made her fat and more depressed inside. She reached over into her bag and looked at the side pocket of the dog carrier and saw the brownie in the plastic all neat and waiting to be eatin.
She saw her small dog poke her head out once more and she gave the dog a small smile to pick her up and let her back paws rest on Emily's les as she held the dog up and kissed her nose sweetly. Still Ice wiggled around, eager to get out again and look around the park, maybe even get lost here and there. She parted her lips a little and hmmed a little till she sang a few little words to the hyper little puppy to clam it down. " lately i've been about thing that we been threw and i dont know if i'd be here without you " she sang sweetly and softly to the little puppy as it's tail wagged and he looked toward her reaching for a kiss. She reached forward and felt the warm touge of her dog on her cheek as he gave her a little bark to say he enjoyed her little snip of a song. Emily could sing, it just you had to catch her in the moment or like sneak up on her because she wouldn't go infron t a crowd and bust out a tune she loved oh so much. She did sing once but that was when she was younger in london and her mom made her do a show, so she wouldn't be so shy around people anymore. It did help in a way, she went to parties and would dance her butt off, didn't care who was watching her or who didn't like it. As long as she was having fun and was with people who actually cared about her, she was fine. She looked at Ice in her hands as he began to wigg around and before she knew it, the small white dog had jumped from her hands and wanted to make a run for it.
" VANEILLA ICE GET BACK HERE! " she yelled and got her bag to go after the small puppy who seem to zip zag all over the same place. Plus have this dress thing wasn't helping with her running because she didn't want it to poff up because of the wind or something that could come out of no where. She walked after th puppy in a fast pace as she jumped on to e bench, close tothe water and hide at the side of someone. " ice not close to the water! " she whimpered and looked at the little dog look up with her and back up, knowing she was in trouble. Emily glared at the puppy a little, her blondish hair fell down infront of her face with only her thick british words flying from her mouth toward the small dog. She put her arm on the head of the bench and let her hair fall back from her face as she looked at the person who her dog seem to love now. " i'm sorry my-.............jayson " she said but whispered his name as she saw his face. She backed up a step and just stuied him a little, he was stil lthe same jayjay feom before. Same puffy hair with cute boyish face and a slim body that she rcould put her hands around. She looked down and vlocked her green eyes from his view and saw her small dog walk up to her. Emily quickly picked her up and put her back into the bag to close it once and for all. She looked back up at Jayson, " i..i should go you look busy " she said and turned to walk back on to the trail and down it, so she could leave. Seeing him there and just, it was overwhelming but she liked it. She forgot his touch but she missed it so much. But most of all, she forgot the affect he has on her with just one look and just with his touch.
She took her pony tail out because many strands had fallen from it, with all her running and it became a mess to her, instead she let her hair loose and ran threw it once. Even with her hair a different color, she still looked like Emily in most ways. Same face but with a tinner body, seeing she was now picking back up the whole eatting thing more now. She wasn't some kind of super skinny but her cruves, weren't really there anymore on her sides. But she guessed that what happen when she lost the person she loved.But if she was bad without him, why was she running from him right now? She stopped in her tracks and turned around, still not knowing if she should go and run back to him to hug him and she missed him. Or just run back to kiss the hell out of him and see if he would kiss her back for now, she couldn't do that though. She rubbed her arms and let her back press up on a tree, just thinking to herself. What was she to do? He was just a few footsteps away from her and more then anything in the world she wanted him to hold her close like old times. But old times where over now right? Small tears came in her eyes at the thought but she held them back and sighed as she closed her eyes for a moment. " i dont think i can do this again " she whispered to herself and bit her bottom lip hard forcing no emotion to cover her face.
Re: ' bleeding love « Reply #3 on Jul 20, 2008, 11:46pm »
Sing Us A Song And We Will Sing It Back To You ' '
Jayson breathed in deeply letting the breeze of the cool summer day blow his hair to the side. Feeling his head sting from how he had pulled his puff just a few seconds ago. Was it all worth it the tears, stress that wanted you to just pull the sides of your hair. Was just one girl worth all this deep thinking, and tears that were just begging to come out. Shaking his head the answer was probably No, Emily had been gone for good. Maybe never going to see her again in his life, so all this worry and sadness he just had to let it all go. It was hard to finally realize that his Jelly was never coming back to him never going to be able to kiss her soft lips again. Hear the little giggle that she had, that electric pull that jay had just felt toward her when they were kissing. Making him want more wanting to feel her hands on his bare body again. Just the thought of this made his body tingle all over the place, whenever they had just touched each other it was like an energy that he couldn't explain just pulling them forward. Sure it was probably just the new Adult hormones taking over but still it was just something a little more then that. It was finally time just to see that she was never going to come back. Stop wasting time on wishing, hoping, that some how she would just pop out of no where and they would go do sexy time or something.
Shaking his head knowing there was no way in hell that would just happen. It was time for him to start enjoying the rockstar life that was a head of him. The party's, trashing hotel rooms, getting VIPS to every concert he ever wanted. Even opening for bands that he head loved or even maybe those bands opening for him. It was all just to real for him everything he had wanted had just happened of jayson on the spot all like that. The tears had just seem to come so quickly had left so fast. Just thinking of his new life gave him new hope, happiness, and the thrill of adventure. Who knew in the next three months his album would come out even maybe sell a million copy's. Or maybe see millions and millions of copies. Jayson smiled happily whipping away the rest of the tears that still edged to get out. Just being blessed with some many great ideas, and chances he just felt so over joyed. Wow it could seem like he was going to have a baby or something. Even though how could he have ever forgotten the first time he had gotten signed. Were he had gotten scouted at and what he did with his first big pay check. If it hadn't been for one of his friends at a local bar he was playing at he would have never been signed. Booking him at a last moments notice not even being warmed up or anything. Just grabbing a guitar and heading on to the stage and playing of his old songs that had so much meaning.
Yes it had been an Emily song well most of them were anyways it was about the first time they had kissed. Which had to be at least ages ago it was after two weeks they had met. How could Jay forget it, it felt like it had just happen yesterday or felt like it had happen almost two hours ago. The sound was called 'Ill be your sunset', and it was one of the best songs he had ever written. Him and Emily were headed toward the movie theater parking lot right after they had just watched the hills have eyes two. YEAH NUMBER TWO. which was so much scarier then number one the whole time jay was about to pee his pants and had to hold her hand. You know PSH.PFT. Not cause he was scared of course because you know he had to protect his Embear just incase she was scared. Which she wasn't Emily was the biggest scary movie fan he had ever seen she had dragged him into that movie. So it was her fault if he had pee peed his pants which amazedly Jayson had held it all in. He had been so proud of himself it was the first time he hadn't peed in a scary movie. But it was all worth the nightmares that night cause what happen after the movie changed his life forever. They had ran all the way up the stairs to the park lot going to the very top where you could have seen everything. The whole city was lighted up all around you the stars were out and the lights of everything guided you around the parking lot.
Not to many were around it was a slow movie day and it was all Jayson and Emily all alone. It had to be the perfect scene all around they were talking about the dumbest things. How they LOVED the way when gummy bears got hot and stuck all together making a huge gummy bear. Yeah that was the best, talking about how the ocean was blue, Why stars never seemed to fall from the sky. Which was a better candy flavor watermelon or cherry, yeah watermelon so won. Then before jay jay had knew it happen before it had happen just taking one look into her massive green eyes. Wrapping both of his skinny arms around her little waist the way he touched her man his skin tingle they way it had always happen. When there hands had hit each other on 'accident' every time that had happen jayson just wanted to hold her hand but never doing it. Not really knowing if his EMBEAR felt the same way but just holding, looking at her the way he did made him know for sure. So he had risked it all and kissing her softly feeling the world evaporate under his feet. For the first time feeling the energy pull them closer together until they were wrapped in each other so tightly it was hard for him to breath. When they had finally let each other stop for a moment of air everything felt silent. The kind of silences that you just knew what two people were thinking and what they felt. Grabbing her hand tightly never wanting to let go jayson smiled at her softly.
From that moment on everything had changed for the better they were so much more closer. Almost like being together but they weren't to scared to take the next level because that next leap was so different from just friendship. Ever since that day JC had just been so sure they were meant to be together it was just what people for centuries had been looking for. It was called true love, but it must haven't been that because if you truly loved someone you just didnt poof all of a sudden. Rubbing his toes together in his vans his thoughts being pulled back into the moment of now. Sitting in front of a lake watching the water sparkle onto his sunglasses still no Emily. The sunset that was starting to settle down and begin a new day. And the tre- and the little white doggie that was sniffing his leg. Jaysons eyes widen "WHAT A CUTE PUPPY", he screamed loudly picking it up with both hands kissing it on the nose. "Whos a cute little puppy you are your a cute little bugger", jay laughed rubbing there nose's together wanting to cute this cute little follow. But where was the owner his gaze had turned away looking for a someone. No one seemed to be in sight alright he had scored a cute new little doggy. Maybe it was a stray or something it was so cute it deserved a nice home.
" i'm sorry my-.............jayson "
Aw man jayson had heard a voice picking his head up looking towards a lovely young lady. "No its fine thi- Im sorry but have we met before", he asked with a preked eyebrow looking up not having a clue it was the person he had wanted for so long. " i..i should go you look busy " before he had knew it the lady was gone in a huff walking toward the tress disappearing. Was it something he said or did he just smell. Lifting his arm taking a quick little sneak smell nope it wasn't that jay had showered this morning. And put on old spice before he had left to the studio so it was for sure not that. Maybe it was smelling his breath nope wasn't that either what in hell did he do. DAM it had to be his new PB&J perfume some people just didnt like the smell of his favorite treat all the time. Jay bit his lip picking up his pencil and notebook going after her hoping it didnt look like a crazy person or something. "Oh no im not busy im just working on some new mus-", stopping himself before he could even finish his sentence. WAIT THIS COULD HAVE BEEN ANOTHER CRAIZED FAN they had paid this lady to con him into following her and BAM they would attack. Jayson feet had came to a sudden haut looking at her up and down feeling his body pull him forward still. Something told him this wasn't the case this was something different. "music", he had finished walking in front of her.
"Please don't go i wanna see your puppy", jay blurted out looking threw the bag trying to find the little doggie. Man it was just so little it was just so hard to find. Oh wait yah he had felt something but it wasn't soft it was something more like ruff. Whoopies maybe it was a lady thingy he dropped the ruff package back to where it was. BUT WHOA. wasnt lady things nice and soft dont ask him how he knew that he just did. <_<// Pulling out the small little package nope it was foil but there was something soft inside. Wow talk about a invasion of privacy opening up the foil quickly seeing a little brown soft brownie. "Wow these look yummy just like my girlfrie- just like ma friend use to make. You dont mind do you", he smiled taking a little nibble off it chewing on it. "Wow this taste just like my friend use to make you steal the secret resiipe from her", chuckling looking up to the girl face as she staired back down at him with her amazing green eyes. HOLD ON A SECOND. GREEN EYES. Jayson's mouth had fell open the brownie had dropped to the floor and his own eyes spread open. "OHMYGOODNESSFORALLTHEGREATTASTINGBROWNIESINTHEWORLDYOUCANTBE", he just seemed to blab nothing was coming out right anymore.
"You just cant be", he said squiting his eyes getting up in her face moving the loose blond hair from her face. But it was it had been all along sitting right across from him at the park. "But you are", It was Emily Wiltson the girl that he had been looking for waiting for her to come back to him. And here she was stairing straight back at him. It was just two seconds ago when he had just let her go and all of a sudden just like that Emily had plugged back into his life like... like.. like.. A pie to his face a smack in the face a something that had just dropped on him like a bomb. Man this girl always seemed to be filled of suprises jumping in and out of his life whenever she felt like it. Going away forever and then planning to come back in like nothing ever happen. But wait that wasnt fair it could have been something good for why she had left. Like she was in a crime case and had to flee the country for good and forever. NO. still it wasnt fair just leaving like that no answer to phone calls, or nuffing. Wait someith- GOSH. this was so like emily to walk straight back into his life making him all confizzled. Jay took a step back taking his hand of her face glarring back at her but having a hint of happiness it was just really hard to read his face. Jayson stood back looking at her feeling the slience pick up not being the good slience back at the movie theater parking lot. This silence had been thick and heavy making his legs go into pudding. "Why", which was all he could seem to say looking down feeling his sunglasses start to fog up.
Re: ' bleeding love « Reply #4 on Jul 21, 2008, 8:29pm »
' she never had time to smell the roses with him gone, she was a nobody the picture perfect girl, her parents wanted look at her now, would you take her back?
Emily had been in relationships before, were things crashed burned to ash. She didn't know if her and Jayson had was considered a relationship to start with, boyfriend and girlfriend. But in her mind they had crashed and burned and to her it seemed impossible to put those pieces together once again. She wanted to realize that she was just a girl, one girl in the world who didn't change things or people's lives. She didn't want to be a burden and she didn't want to be the person who messed up someone's live. She found it best to stand in the background and watch from the sidelines, cheering inside for that person. It wasn't something she was use to for sure, but she had come to learn it and now accept it. It wasn't the usual Emily Watson came to know but they didn't know what she had to grew. Stupid rehab for months, just sitting at this meeting talking about feelings and junk. Do you know what that did to a person? It also made her fear to go back to doing drugs ever in her life or just be near them now. It wasn't like Emily went over to drug dealers everyday and had a friendly little chat with them. Her mother didn't understand that about her, she was past drugs now.
Her mother worried to damn much, one day she knew it would be the death of the women or the overload of stress she took on as well. The women keeping tabs on Emily, like if she was a baby in day care, she was grown and ready to branch out into the real world of new York city. She smirked at the thought of breaking out or really freedom was the word. It was what she wanted from her mouth and hopefully coming back to new York was going to give her that chance and prove to her mother she wasn't going to end up dead on the streets. Part of her did feel dead inside, ever since she left this place and him. London was at times, slow to caught the new music stars but when it came to something rock it would pick it up in a second. She could remember walking down the street in London with her friend as they were making their way toward the pet store to buy a new dog. One store was full of music and a voice came right threw the door and hit Emily with s hock, she stopped dead in her tracks and slowly closed her eyes. It was his voice and it was on the radio, believe it or not! She could only smile brightly and pray to herself that he made it all the way to that rock star life, he should have. During that time, she made himself believe he found a new girl to love and call his jelly.
A new Emily to snuggle in with in his room and a new Emily to play water gun squirt tag with a truck load of glow sticks in a backyard. Of course it made her cry at time, just to think of him with someone else, picture it even brought her close to tears. At that time, she didn't know if she was ever to come back to New York again and start to relive the life she once had and loved. The one night that she shared with him, that she couldn't even remember that much of was still fresh in her mind. When he said he loved her and kissed her right after with no holding back. How she was letting her hand explore his body in a rough but sexual manner, she guessed she could call it make up sex. They did have a fight before that sex happened, but couples had make up sex. Where her and Jayson considered a couple s well back then? A fling? She didn't know but she wanted i to be the first one, though she had never been able to enjoy the life as Jayson's Clasp girlfriend. Would she ever get to again?
Green eyes opened once more to see the forest around her once more and her heart beat still racing like it was no tomorrow. That really was him back there and she had ran from him. Ran from the pain and happiness she missed dearly in her heart. To hold in he emotions, she bit her bottom lip, harshly and bend her head down to recollect her self once more. She heard the voice of jay, coming after her and she could only let her head back and whisper a small " damn " loud enough for her ears only. She didn't dear look at him, but keep he head straight or down, away from his gaze, if she wanted to make it out here alive without him noticing it was her, she would have to. She took a breath in and watched from behind her fallen hair strands of hair as he went into her bag to look of vanilla ice, her small white puppy. She looked down and watched as his and went through her stuff like it was his, her face happy and careful as ever it seemed on the outside.
She smiled to herself a little as in how close she was to him now and she wanted it to stay that way. She wanted to wake up and pull on her tee shirt with some small Victoria secret nickers and see jay jay walking into the room shirtless in boxers. She felt to at home in those arms, in that bed, with him of course in that package. Her eyes started to water as little, as she could cherish the small moment he went through her bag. She forced them back without question and attached him finally pull out the brownie, nothing close to her dog. Was he searching for the dog or food? As he opened the brownie and spoke, she listen carefully and took every word in like it was the last. It was like a knife in her head, when he corrected him self on girlfriend and used...friend. Right now she didn't want to stay, she walked to leave and go away no be here right now. She held in more tears and watched as he looked up toward her.She couldn't help but stare him right back in the eyes and wonder what he thoughts of her right now. She didn't speak a word, then again what was there to stay when he just realized it was Emily.
She lifted her head up and watched as he carefully moved the hair from her face and looked her good in the eyes again for a moment. The stare was to much to pull away, but once he stepped back she did. He knew her more then anything and he could read the pain in her eyes for sure. Just like she could read the pain in his own eyes and maybe, just maybe a little happiness in there to for her. he felt her body yearn for his touch once more, her hair, her skin, her cheek, anything she just wanted him close again. He was like the water to her plant and this plant was starving for a good drink. But she knew he would reject her, why would not? Gone for a year and come back out of no where in the middle of a freaking park. She parked her lips and took one breathe, to hopefully fumble out the answer he was looking for in the young women.
" I fell into a small depression and my mother pan iced. She forced me over back to London and into...a rehab center. Cut off everything to new York because she thought i was getting into drugs also. The only way I'm back here, is because it my birthday present and my dad said I could take care of myself without my mother in my life " she said and looked back up toward him, falling silent once more. Her hand reached into the back and pulled out the small white doggie, h wanted so much to cuddle. The dog barked happily and wagged it small little tail, to leap into jay jay's awaiting arms. It made her remember Romeo and how every time Jayson came over, the dog was run all the way from the backyard into the living room and pounce on him to snuggle in happily. Jayson just had some kind of thing with dogs, something she didn't know of.
Re: ' bleeding love « Reply #5 on Jul 23, 2008, 11:52pm »
Sing Us A Song And We Will Sing It Back To You ' '
Jayson picked his face back this time feeling the tears start to sting almost like stabbing at the side of his eyes. They were putting up such a fight to get out of there but there was no way in hell that he was going to let them. Not in front of her, not so Emily could see them and he didnt even want to see hers. When jay would have gotten home there would have been a mess of new songs. On the paper there was going to be little drops of tears that is when he would let everything spill. There had only been one time where he had actually cried and someone saw and that person was Emily. It had been the night they he had confessed everything to her. His love, wanting to see her for the rest of his life. But yeah everything was kind of erased away when Jelly had left him with out a word. Even though it could have been anything it still made him mad, sad, unwanted. Like all those words he had told her didnt even mean anything. The I love you's, ill always be there for you no matter where life takes us. Well Jayson guessed that didnt mean as much as it did to her that night as it had meant to him. Jay had took those words to heart and beyond then just a few weeks later she had vanished like off the face of the earth.
His eyes met her glance again for another moment thank god for the dark sunglasses. Or his red puffy eyes might have shown for her to see. His eyes were glued to hers like nothing ever before just once again the energy began making him walk just a little bit closer. Jayson's eyes still looking deep into her light dark green ones. AMAZING. even being mad at this girl made him still want to just take her in his arms and kiss her deeply. Wanted to hold her close and just like never let go fly away some where and never come back. Emliy always had such a good way of showing the world who she was. How famous she was going to be in the future and make something BIG of herself. Jayson always saw her as the center of attention in his eyes and heart never taking a beat off hers. Watching the way her hair swung around when she flipped it toward him, how her hips shook when she walked around all sexy. Sure it was kind of stalker status how jay had knew this stuff but he was madly in love. Only a person who truly loved someone else could have spotted this stuff in a heart beat. New what her favorite perfume was, what words she couldn't say in the adorable British accent. Jelly had always been the girl dancing in the middle of the dance floor shaking her stuff. But something had seemed different some how, like something had became off beat.
Then there had also been times when she had just stood in the back cheering for people. Not being the center of attention anymore sometimes it was like she had did it on purpose. Jayson always wondered why she tried to fit in when Emily was born to stand out. Peanut Butter bit his lip not breaking the only real eye contact they had for the first time in a year. But there it was again this invisible force field that just wanted to bump there bodies together he had just wanted to KISS THE CRAP OUTTA HER. That was no way in hell possible his girl friend would have been pissed if that would have happen. DUN DUN DUN!! yesh there had been a new girl in jaysons life and they were you could say in love. Nothing like Emily and J had been even though he never spoke about Emily to her ever. To him Em was like his best kept secret it was a past that had hurt him bad but still kept in his heart. As for Talloo she had been his best kept open secret well all the other fans began to cry. Because this girl had took his heart right out from under him. His new girl Tallulah was scary almost kinda like Emily expect they looked completely different. talloo had been more of a rocker kind of chick looking almost grudge all the time. As for Jelly she was almost like a girly girly type which jayson had always been a sucker for. Then Tallulah had been there for him when she wasnt when he had to say goodbye to his father. Send his mom to rehab and him and the twins moved.
Yeah his life had been hell growing up but when he was with Tallulah all that had disappeared. Always telling him to be thankfully for what he had now then just keep looking toward the past. Another thing good about thinking about the future was he would probably know for sure that Tallos was going to be right behind him. Jayson had also started another little pile of songs that were for her to her and every time she had made him smile. The good thing was that Jayson had met Tallulah before he had became famous. She was there all last year when Emily wasn't him and her had grown to be such good friends. Then one night at a party they had hit if off as more then friends and BAM. It had been boyfriend and girlfriends ever since. Though JJ had always had a sort of connection with her just when they were friends too. Tallooos just had that smile that made you wanna smile back, that weirdness that made you laugh. And that soft skin that felt great pressed against his own. Being almost sure that he wanted to be with her for a long time but then again here was Emily walking right back in turning everything back outta wack. When things always seemed to be just right but that is what made her so amazing. Always pulling surprises but he wasn't so sure that this time it would have a happy ending.
One of the reasons that she had probably vanished was her mom or something. Who was someone that jayson never really understood well not her real mom but her step. Who was kind of an odd character always worrying about Emily. Not really being to sure if she had even like jayson's look or the way he acted like a kid. Everything about jay had screamed adult kid, and a rebel in a good way almost if that made any sense. He was happy that EmBears mom cared but it had almost been like she had cared way to much. Almost making it for Emily to breath sometimes but believe it or not jayson would have given anything for that. Growing up for him was never in no hell a walk in a park nothing was ever given to him on a plater like most people lived. And he really meant no one ever gave him nothing. once he had hit 9. In his parents eyes that almost meant like hitting 18 time to act like an adult. But it wasn't fair even before 9 they still didnt give a fuck about him feeling like no body did. Parents always making him fend for himself find his own food what would you expect from a drinking mom and beating cheating father. Before nine he remembered the bumps and bruises that were given to him by his father. Being beat for still not saying dada when he wanted, not being able to be potty trained fast. After 9 is when the real pain had started just being beat when he didnt do something quick enough. Or when Mr. Clasp swore that jayson was giving him the eye.
All these things had marks on jayson for life and he really meant marks. Having little brown spots on his body from the punching, stove burns, belt smacking's and everything else. His father wouldn't have paid for food for him or clothes. Then when that happen jayson walked on to the streets look for little odd jobs. Then his life had changed when drugs had entiered his world at first he didnt do them but sell them. Only it only took a little time after when he had hit 12 for his first hit then a second then. Only ever weekend, only every Friday, only everyday. His world had shifted when Jayson had begun the ugly drug world and was moving so fast that he couldn't stop it. By age 16 his parents had decided to reproduce again which was never a smart thing. Not having one kid but two little twins Boy and a Girl named Abel and Ashley. That day that they were born it was his job to get them out of this hell hole and away from his parents. It was there only way to not become messed they way he had been. They way jayson had been treated by his parents. Selling the drugs twice as hard and doing them twice as hard but then that all came to a halt when he had met Emily. She had been going threw that hard time too but then finding out her past about rehab.
REHAB. DID SHE.. BUT NO SHE COULDNT EMILY HAD BEEN OFF THE STUFF FOR GOOD RIGHT?
Feeling there eyes connect again jay watched as her mouth began to move. As there had been a heavy silence for a while she had an explanation. " I fell into a small depression and my mother pan iced. She forced me over back to London and into...a rehab center. Cut off everything to new York because she thought i was getting into drugs also. The only way I'm back here, is because it my birthday present and my dad said I could take care of myself without my mother in my life " Jayson shook his head shaking his head hard NO. NO. Not rehab for his Embear not again not all that pain she had to go threw. Not all the stress and him being mad at her she didnt deserve any of it. Feeling tears peek and this time really coming down from under his sunglasses. Why didnt she tell him about this depression, why didnt emily say anything about it. Jay would have tried to help give her a shoulder to cry on arms to be held in. He didnt understand why but for some reason jayson had begin to feel it was all his fault. THe reason she didnt feel comfortable enough to tell him about this depression or how she was feeling. Did he never pay attention enough, never opened up his ears wide enough to listen. Watching her as though she was fragile almost made of glass but she was so fragile. Before Jay could stop himself he had did it wrapping both arms around her neck pulling her close. Tearing up in her blond hair he had no idea why he was crying but there was way to man mixed emotions between them to even understand. "Im so sorry i should have been there more", he managed to say.
Re: ' bleeding love « Reply #6 on Jul 25, 2008, 1:03am »
' she never had time to smell the roses with him gone, she was a nobody the picture perfect girl, her parents wanted look at her now, would you take her back?
As she was embraced in his hug, she let her head rest on his shoulder and her eyes close. Her body less tense and just relaxed for that moment that they were together in a huge. " no no it wasn't you trust me peanut it wasn't you. I just...had a few things on my mind about...things " she said, finding it hard to explain to him what she was trying to tell him. She stepped back nd looked down toward the ground, her both of her hands together, shifting ever so. She sniffed and brought a strand of her blonde hair get tucked behind her ear, before it could drop down into her view once more. There was space between them now, she wasn't regecting jayjay but part of her coldn't take that big leap back in. She reached into her bag and pulled out a small napkin that smelled like chocolate with cute little monkey patterns on them. These were jayjay's favorite and she always carried three or four around just incase. One hand reached over and slide off his shades, she knew he had tears in his eyes. She let the napkin tip, wipe away the tears before she placed his glasses back on smoothly. She sighed and looked over toward him and found her hand on his cheek. Her hand right on the smooth skin of his thin cheeks, make her fnd it rather cute that his skin was as soft as a bby's butt. It felt as if she was saying goodbye to him, bt she wasnt in a way. Most of her just felt troubled and alone, even with him here and close to her.
She had heard about the new girl in his life, the new one to bake him brownies and do his hair if it got wet in the rain. Emily really just wanteto keep him to herself, and lock him up under the bed so no one would get to him. But she couldn't do that and she knew it because it would be wrong to lock the boy up in her house and never let him see the world. She could remember reading the paper and seeing him and a girl together sitting in a tea shop, happy as ever. She couldn't see the girl's face but the body lanluage ead it all as she rested in his side. His arm around her shoulders, pulling her cloer as they snuggled happy and sipped tea or whatever they were doing together. The main thing was that, she could see that were a couple, a happy healthy couple and she was not needed in the picture. Part of her loved jayson like there was no tomorrow, it would be a pain in her heat to see him with another women, as well as even passing the thought. She just hoped, that girl knew how to take care of jayjay if he was sick, or had a bad hair day, or need a sweet treat to cheer him up.
She bet the new girl he was with was better then her, way better. Didn't leave him all of a sudden or kept feelings inside away fom him. She bet the new girl, didn't cry when something wet wrong or have a messed up family like Emily. This new girl must of been better then her, worth it more then Emily. She knew she was putting heself downand she didn't cae because it was killing her to see him with anoter women. Her feet backed up once more as her green eyes shifted toward the floor. Her head began to shake a little, in saying no, she shouldnt be here. What was the point of coming back? He had the perfect life right now and with her here she could just ruin it. Silent sigh pasted her glossed lips before she stepped back on to the trail once more, away from jayjay. It's better like this, away from him and his new girl. " i'm sorry " she whispered and began to walk away from him.
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